Spoiler alert: Do not read this if you haven't read The Hunger Games III (This is Primroses's article on Katniss's resolutions)

My name is Katniss Everdeen, I am 17 years old. I was a tribute, then a victor, then a murderer. I hate the Capitol because they stole Peeta, I hate District thirteen because they took Prim away. Prim, she is dead. She can't be dead, I SAVED her. I want my sister.

It is like a game, repetitive but not that easy. It makes my head spin but it helps me to keep what little sanity I have left, sometimes. At first I was sad, angry, but now I am just numb. I can't take it anymore, the pain, the grief, everything is too much. I know what everyone thinks, that I am crazy, just like Annie. And I am. Reality and nightmares merge, everything is the same, I can't really make the difference between when I am asleep and when I am awake. Because it hurts all the time, and when it hurts less, some people only I can see torture me, they take all I have left.

Doctor Aurelius said I should write my resolutions for my new life since it is almost New Year's Eve, but I don't know if I am capable of writing anymore. I will try.

1. I will get my sanity back.

My first logical thought since a long time. I want the voices, the nightmares and the dead people to go away; I want them to leave me alone. Maybe everything is a nightmare and I will wake up in my old house in the Seam, I would not have done the Hunger Games, I would still have Prim. Yes, let's pretend everything is a nightmare.

2. I will want to live.

Without her, I don't want to. I wish all the time I was killed in the 74th Hunger Games. If I had chosen to eat those berries she would be alive; she would have a miserable life, but she would be here. Primrose was the one who always saved me from self-destruction. I don't want to be alone anymore, I can't do this, I want to kill myself only to see her one more time, to make the voices and the nightmares to go away. I want to die. I want my sister back. Please.

3. I will shower.

Pathetic isn't it? I don't even have the will to wash my own ass. I don't care, I don't care about anything. I will never be clean again with all the blood on my hands, so why should I smell clean when I know everything in me is dirty? I want my mother to wash the blood away. I need Peeta to hold me. I can't live without my little sister.

4. I will get out of my head.

The outside world is dreadful, but my own world is so much worst. My self-punishment, being trapped in the world when everyone wants to see me dead. You are a monster, they say, and I believe them, because that's what I am. A monster, a murderer. I killed Prim, I don't want her gone, I want to go to her.

5. I will stop feeling guilty.

I killed them all. Rue, sweet and gentle Rue, tries to kill me every days. I killed Finnick, he will never know about his son. Those hurt people in the hospital back in District 8, they were killed because I was here, I murdered them. My mother left me all alone, she hates me, everyone does. I am some sort of poison, everyone I loved was killed. I am the problem. I am the poison. I killed them. I wish I died. I want her alive. I'm sorry little duck, please come back.

6. I will stop hating everyone.

The Capitol tried to kill me. Gale invented the bombs that killed Prim. District 13 killed Prim. My mother ran away. Peeta doesn't love me anymore, he even wants me dead, like everyone  does. The dead don't feel anymore, but I do. The survivors want to die. I hate them, I hate them all. For not killing me, for saving me, for condemning me to live a life I don't deserve, I don't want. I want to go away and never see them again. My sister understood me. I need my sister.

7. I will be more than a piece in their Games.

Katniss the Hunter, Katniss the "Girl on Fire",  Katniss the Mockingjay, the tribute, the Victor, the Star-Crossed lover. Thank you Peeta, for making me understand, at that time, that I was more than those girls. You would be so ashamed of me Peeta. My boy with the bread, you are gone since a long time, aren't you? I wish I could have said goodbye to the boy who loved me, the one that didn't let me starve to death. I am the shell of who I was, a poor excuse for a human being. We both are, but even with the brainwashing the Capitol gave you, you are still better than me.

8. I will accept Prim's death.

Never. She can't be dead. She was supposed to be well protected. I volunteered as a tribute for her to live. They killed her. I killed her. She was all I had. They took away the only beautiful thing in this world when they killed her. She was murdered by District 13 when she was trying to save some Capitol's children, ironic isn't it? She was on fire, reduced to burning flesh and ashes. I should have saved her, I should have locked her somewhere safe. I wish I would have burnt. I remember when I tried to teach her how to hunt, she tried to heal our meal. She was so innocent, she IS. She will come back. I don't want to live without Prim. I want to see her, to hold her.  Please Prim, take me with you, don't leave me alone in a world where you don't exist anymore.

.oo0oo.

It has been five years since she made that list. She is alive. I am too. It was long to wake up from the nightmare the Capitol put in my head. But I did it, for her. Sometimes she still  sees things or persons I can't see, and I remember some events that have never happened. But it is alright, because we have each other. We still play at the game she created for me during the war, “Real or Not Real”.

“ Prim is dead, she is never ever coming back again. Real or not real?” She asks sometimes, when it is a bad day.

“Real.” I respond. “You don't want to kill me, you love me. Real or not real?” It is hard for both of us, sometimes I forget she is Katniss, the girl I have loved for my entire life.

“Real.”

MJK and Shrek's resolutions...

Hi everybody ! 

It's Mickael.J-King and today, we are in february but I want to wish you : Happy New Year 2015.

I chose to speak about the good resolutions of the most famous of the ogres : SHREK !

For people who don't know him, Shrek is a green ogre with a big face, he's dirty, funny and a little bit vulgar. He's accompanied by princess Fiona and by a donkey which is called Donkey. 

That's why Shrek decided to take good resolutions for this new year, he's interviewed by a journalist and his wife Fiona watchs him in front of the TV, she isn't very convinced...

Shrek : "Firstly, I would be less vulgar and I wouldn't belch any more at table" 

Fiona : He'll never make it, he is in a bad mood if he doesn't belch after the meal

Shrek : "Secondly, I'm going to be more polished when I speak and avoid saying swearwords"

Fiona : Oh, he says anything, he offends Donkey every day ! He will not change that.

Shrek : "Afterwards, I'm going to wash myself once a week, it's promised"

Fiona : I hope he's going to make it because he stinks, it's horrible I assure you ! 

Shrek : "Maybe I'm going to decorate the swamp with the help of Fiona"

Fiona : What a hypocrite, he told me that he wanted to change nothing two days ago

Shrek : "I shall try to cook, I would eat no more earthworms"

Fiona : It's really a liar, he adores earthworms but on the other hand for the cooking I'm annoyed ! 

Shrek : "I would not be grumbling any more, I would be smiling and joyful"

Fiona : Oh no, it's what makes its charm but why not, I doubt this resolution ! 

Shrek : "I shall stop frightening the people and I would be nicer"

Fiona : It's a good idea because everybody believes that he is a real monster, he is adorable but he has his difficult character, it's like that ! 

Shrek : "I shall make no more mud bath because Fiona doesn't like that"

Fiona : Yes, I hate his mud bath, it's very dirty and he puts it everywhere

Shrek : "Then, I shall stop annoying Donkey because he cannot take it any more !"

Fiona : It's his friend, it's funny, I like it, that makes me laugh ! 

Shrek : "Moreover, I think that I'm going to take Fiona in a journey to the..."

Donkey arrives abruptly : Oh Fiona, switch off the TV !! This journey is a surprise ! 

Fiona : Ok Ok, I hope that Shrek is going to apply these good resolutions.

Thank's for reading ! 

Mickael.J-King

Grecy and Kirikou's New Year Resolutions...

 Hello everybody I'm Kirikou.

I hope that I'm well known. 

To begin I would like to present  best wishes of happiness to every body for this new year 2015.

[Thank you, Kirikou. Mrs P.]
 

Indeed,I convened to you in this meeting to speak to you about new resolutions which I took about our village.

Unaware of what takes place in the village, we have no water, no land to cultivate.

The river of Marigo is very far and we don't  have men anymore now that Karaba transformed them into objects obeying her orders.

Being given  that in our village remain only two men, my uncle and the wise person of the village and the rest are women, children.

I decided to go into town to indicate to our government to send the servicemen to  free our village of this misfortune.

 
And also I would take advantage of this opportunity to ask for an audience with the Minister for Education   to be able  to build us a school so that we can learn to read and to write because the education is major especially for us young people of tomorrow.

 
I'm fed up to live in an autartic community of subsistence. It would be necessary to develop a long-lasting community, export our local products like our pottery, the gold at the same time that is going to attract the investors in our village. That would be brilliant.

Look all around us  today in the 21th century our moms do not hide their breasts, we walk barefoot, we live as savages that is in the natural state. We have to leave this natural state to be modernized. You do not realize that leaves us outside the globalization?

 
It is horrible, it is deplorable!

 
I Kirikou  do not want to live any more in this state.

 I think of my future what we are going to become tomorrow? Our community is on the way of disappearing.
We cannot let her exterminate us.

 
Karaba destroyed our village. I already know the secret of its curse when I went to my grandfather who lives at the other end of the mountain, he  told me everything  on her; we pushed  a  poisoned thorn on her back and that makes her suffer day and night.


When law enforcement will be there she will be then arrested and we are going to tear away  this nail.

 But before that, the modernity has to  invade our village with the industrial revolution, the transport, the education.  

What do you  think about that? I hand over to you to the one who wants to speak.

The wise person of the village spoke and said:

My dear kirikou child stop saying silly things, I understand you but all that you let us  be in Africa and ask for will not be realized in a slap of fingers, no my dear child.
This village is given up by our governement. Nobody takes care, they are concentrated for doing other affairs like dictature, make suffer the people. I'm against globalisation.

To what  use is  education? That will bring you  troubles my dear child.
For centuries, we have lived in an autartic life, with the subsistence economy and that for generations in generations.

 
You Kirikou and your friends you have to help your mothers going  to draw some water from the river of Marigo. We shall go to beg Karaba so that she can return us the water like that we go afire our agriculture it is good OK

And Kirikou answered and said : not matter I don't  agree with you. I'm ready to go in the city. You don't have to worry youth because you're  old and you will never understand the concern I have for our village. I want the change of life, modernity.


Suddenly the strong woman replied: eeeh dirty miserable child, you are only  small you receive notice  to tell us about your stupid things?

Elsewhere or out of this idea in your big head. You're an idiot look at you, and you want to contradict the wise?

Kirikou's mother replied to the strong woman: you don't have permission to insult my son Kirikou. He is a brainy boy you know this. He saved us when we were sick.

Thanks to him he convinced his friend to go pick some yellow flowers in the field of Karaba the witch. I totaly agree for the right of Kirikou's resolutions for the new year and I have to support his ambition.
Tomorrow I will sell the clay pots so I'll pay his bus fare. He will go away from here.

Kirikou replied: listento me please , it will be twilight soon and night will fall. We can not continue this meeting.
That is why I ask you to go home and that we are under the baobab and darkness approaching.

We will continue our meeting next week but know for sure that I Kirikou will go to the end and my dreams will become a reality...

Suddenly everybody pushed the cry of joy in honor of the courage of Kirikou . Some danced, others sang with loud cry.

To be continued.......

Grapefruit, in Dexter's mind...

Hi ! I'm Grapefruit---

I hope that you enjoyed your holidays and that you received beautiful presents for Christmas. 

My new article is going to deal with a fictional character who take new years resolutions. I chose DEXTER, of course.

I'm going to write with an internal focalization to be more realistic.

"After my holidays, like every year, I have to take new resolutions. 

The first thing which comes to minds is : to kill less. 

But, like my sister said to me, it's impossible, I will not be able to stop and I don't know how to stop... 

When you begin to smoke, you don't stop any more.

 It's the same for me with murders. 

But when I think about my son, I'm ashamed, worried... 

What is he going to think if a day he knows who I am... 

I have to be a good father for him. 

All the fathers do not kill people, I'm certainly the only one. And I'm proud of it unfortunately, it's a hobby, an habit...

More seriously, I have to buy new tools, the last time I put 5 min to slit a leg of my victim whereas usually I slit that in 30 seconds. 

That is a good resolution! 

Moreover, find a best place to hide them, yesterday my son had a saw between his hands...  

Find another place to throw the bodies too, the ocean begins to be full. 

I can also wash my car more often, during my last murder, the blood flowed because I had badly closed the bag, I have to be more professional. 

If I already did all these things, it would be very well!"

                        Thanks for reading! Grapefruit---